Daughters
So I’ve been watching a lot of “Damages” recently (I’m up to season 2 now!). Its an incredibly intense and gripping series – definitely one of the better series out, and I definitely recommend! I know I’ve been advocating it recently, but heck, there is a reason behind it. Plus, there’s Rose Byrne. What’s there not to like?
And I’ve started reading again (that sounds terrible, “again”). “Crime and Punishment” by Fyodor Dostoyevsky, translated by David McDuff. I’m about halfway through the book at the moment, and I’ve got to say, I’m glad I started reading again. You get lost in the moment, and temporarily you’re transported to a fantasy only accessible through your own imagination and power. And as cliché as it sounds, an escape from reality. Even temporarily. Even if every copy of the book contains the same words, its dependent upon the way you interpret the book, and how it affects you personally. How can the character’s experience be implemented and can you relate to this character in any possible way (even if he is a bit of a narcissist (in my opinion) and a bit bonkers and… slighly psychotic)?
So what have I learnt so far?
From Damages especially, “Trust no one”. But that is quite a pessimistic opinion indeed.
From Crime and Punishment, don’t kill anyone otherwise you suffer from delirium and fainting spells and seesaw mood swings. But maybe that’s Raskolnikov’s temperament. Plus think twice about everything – you may get trapped you know.
From university, highly opinionated people can possibly cause me to dislike them, especially if its offensive and best to keep these “opinions” to yourself. But I just can’t make up my mind quite yet. And you’re meant to be controversial, I get that.
There are excuses for everything, or so it seems. No brownie points. Talk to me, stop confusing me! Plus, sometimes I get the feeling that everyone knows ESP and my thoughts leak out like a tap which can never be closed.
So one last thing left to ponder from the above…
If you’re at a crossroad and for some reason both paths eventually lead you to the same place, does the route you take necessarily make a difference? Obviously both routes have different experiences, hardships and triumphs, so ultimately, how can you make that decision? The toss of a coin? Would you base it on probability? Instinct? But what exactly is instinct? It could be the influence of others lulling you into a false sense of security about your decision you only realise was a mistake in retrospect. Or would you leave it up to fate? I wonder if it really is complex or I don’t know any better.
And I’ve started reading again (that sounds terrible, “again”). “Crime and Punishment” by Fyodor Dostoyevsky, translated by David McDuff. I’m about halfway through the book at the moment, and I’ve got to say, I’m glad I started reading again. You get lost in the moment, and temporarily you’re transported to a fantasy only accessible through your own imagination and power. And as cliché as it sounds, an escape from reality. Even temporarily. Even if every copy of the book contains the same words, its dependent upon the way you interpret the book, and how it affects you personally. How can the character’s experience be implemented and can you relate to this character in any possible way (even if he is a bit of a narcissist (in my opinion) and a bit bonkers and… slighly psychotic)?
So what have I learnt so far?
From Damages especially, “Trust no one”. But that is quite a pessimistic opinion indeed.
From Crime and Punishment, don’t kill anyone otherwise you suffer from delirium and fainting spells and seesaw mood swings. But maybe that’s Raskolnikov’s temperament. Plus think twice about everything – you may get trapped you know.
From university, highly opinionated people can possibly cause me to dislike them, especially if its offensive and best to keep these “opinions” to yourself. But I just can’t make up my mind quite yet. And you’re meant to be controversial, I get that.
There are excuses for everything, or so it seems. No brownie points. Talk to me, stop confusing me! Plus, sometimes I get the feeling that everyone knows ESP and my thoughts leak out like a tap which can never be closed.
So one last thing left to ponder from the above…
If you’re at a crossroad and for some reason both paths eventually lead you to the same place, does the route you take necessarily make a difference? Obviously both routes have different experiences, hardships and triumphs, so ultimately, how can you make that decision? The toss of a coin? Would you base it on probability? Instinct? But what exactly is instinct? It could be the influence of others lulling you into a false sense of security about your decision you only realise was a mistake in retrospect. Or would you leave it up to fate? I wonder if it really is complex or I don’t know any better.
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